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Silo’s on Table Rock

They say a picture can say a thousand words. Some of those words for this picture would be “acceptance”, acceptance of the new and the old, the word “heritage”, and “wisdom”. I think another word that rings true would be “challenge”. Yes, that word surely fits this picture. A few others that hold true is “freedom”, “sacrifice” and the most important word here, “love” – always for me, it’s love. But, before I start to tell you how all these words describe this picture, you should snuggle up with a blanket and a hot cup of coffee (or two). Yes, I have said this before as I have another story to tell.

So, let me tell you about this photo. There is generational history on this farm as with many farms – you can see time has worn it well. The boys turned to men sitting on this roof have a history as well. All who are diverse and come from all walks of life – two of them are my own sons, both different in amazing ways. Yet, all of these boys to men have had a huge impact on my life. They all have taught me much in life, unbeknownst to them.

These past three years, I have taken so many pictures capturing so much emotion on this fixer-upper farm. Yet, I have not posted them as I was afraid my excitement could become failure. It has been amazing working extremely hard to turn an adventurous dream into a reality. We are still not out of the woods yet, I am still scared of failing as I have failed much in my life. Yet, I have learned SO much from my failures. Again, I revert back to my beloved grandfather who preached, “Lisa, you don’t stop learning till the day you die.” My Grandfather also said, “Lisa don’t judge a book by its cover, read the pages in between.” As a young child, I never understood that one so fully. Well today Grandpa, I so understand what you mean. You see my book cover is not the one I would have picked out EVER, but life runs its course like a river through the Rockies. Us humans can be so judging of what we “think” we can assume from each other’s book covers. But, as Grandpa says, “Read the chapters in between, the trials and tribulations of life, the loss, the growth, the unknown tragedies – ALL hidden in between our book covers of life.” Coach K sometimes says, “You have to dig deep for their heart.” I agree. If you keep digging, the heart is a precious gift to find in one another.

Life is for living which is learning and failing – you can’t have one without the other. Such as joy. You can’t have joy if you don’t have sorrow. We are all captains of our own ship. It’s our choice how to bare the storms in life. We ALL have stories, we can choose to be victims or warriors. I have always chosen to be happy through it all. I look at my tumultuous times in life as a lesson in life, hurtful, yet a notch on my belt of wisdom. Each lesson humbling me more to walk my life in less judgment.

I used to say:
Your 20’s are for kicking up your heels and having fun.
Your 30’s are for making mistakes.
Your 40’s are for learning from your mistakes and passing it forward.
When I was in my 40’s, I also said when I get to my 50’s, I will let you know what that is all about.

Well, 60 is right around the corner… I have found for “me” that the 50’s are about forgiveness. You can not truly love without truly forgiving. We are all human, we all make mistakes one way or another, big and small.

We all have insecurities from our pain and we all deal with them differently. There are so many people I wish I could go back to apologize to for my own irresponsible insecurities and ask for their forgiveness. In this mindset, it has helped me be able to “accept” others and forgive, as I want to be forgiven because love is about forgiveness – it’s full circle ⭕️ and it’s quite beautiful when you open up your heart. I ONLY say this as I have experienced my own amount of “pain” in life as everyone does.

I can “choose” to allow it to make me negative or I can choose to learn from it and grow. My choice is to grow and be happy. I look in the mirror first to forgive MYSELF (that took me over 57 years to do and still working on it😉) as well as forgiving others. ❣️🤷‍♀️🙏

Watching President H.W. Bush’s eulogy, Senator Alan Simpson said these words, “Hatred corrodes the container it’s carried in.” Another quote from his eulogy was, “Humor is the universal solvent against the abrasive elements in life.” I.E. laughter does the heart good. If you get the opportunity, I bid you to listen to Alan Simpson’s eulogy for President H.W. Bush. He has so much to offer with his wisdom – I believe his belt has many notches of wisdom.

So, back to this picture and the words that it speaks. Acceptance of the new and the old can be challenging. We have the freedom in this country to take on challenges in life because of the sacrifice of others. Our failures become our wisdom and our wisdom becomes our heritage that we pass on to our loved ones.

As I watched my son work to refurbish the tin on the roof, of course I was snapping pictures. Through my excitement of the moment I was capturing, one by one, the rest of the boys to men climbed that ladder to be part of the picture. With each one that crawled up on the roof, my excitement grew. Finally, our dear Buzz crawled up on that ladder to the roof, walked over and plunked himself down on that pitch with his crew – it’s that acceptance thing. We all want to be accepted and part of the picture, whatever the picture may be. I have watched our dear Buzz in his 71 years young not let that number hold him back. He has taught more to these young boys about being gentlemen, builders, and good human beings. He has allowed them to be right and himself wrong, knowing the confidence that he’s quietly building.

Coach K says, “Confidence shared is better than just confidence in yourself.” Each of these boys has a story to tell about what brought their path in life here today. What I love is being a stepping stone in their path of life. I love watching their growth in knowledge and confidence. Yet, they somehow left their mark here as they drive down this bumpy old driveway, part of their heritage at this fixer-upper farm. Senator Alan Simpson also said in his eulogy, “The fulfillment of a complete life cannot be achieved without the service to others.” In closing his eulogy, Senator Simpson listed many accomplishments of President Bush such as jumping out of an airplane at ninety years young – proving the President’s own words that he wanted to “die young as late as possible”. So, yes Grandpa, you are so right – keep learning till the day you die.

I invite you to follow us at “Silo’s on Table Rock” as we tell our story of the fixer-upper farm that teaches us “out of all bad comes greatness.”